hello internet, 

tumblr took over my life and i neglected blogspot. sorry, these things happen. everything is okay with me. i go back home on thursday and i'm done with school after i write this last paper (due tomorrow). of course, i haven't started it and probably wont for another 2 hours. a lot happened in 2 months and i feel like a different person now, because of it. lazy bloomington summer. i can't wait. pitchfork will be great, too.

my head hurts. i should sleep. have to wake up early tomorrow. it's nice getting back into the swing of things after being so sickly earlier this week. going to the MoMA tomorrow for class. haven't been to that class for 2 weeks. i need to shoot more. i am going to shoot more. instead of just saying that. my mother told me to take pictures of people's ears. she is so sweet, really. minae, kelsey and karina are coming up for spring break in a week. i am no good at entertaining people. i don't do exciting things everyday and that's okay with me. although, somedays i wish i did. somedays i wish i just ran around town doing crazy shit because i'm young and i can get away with it. sometimes i don't feel so young anymore. i like having things to look forward to. it's no fun if you're not excited about anything. that's actually the worst feeling in the world. feeling totally indifferent towards everything. but then i guess you don't get disappointed that way. i'm not sure what i am trying to say. no one reads these things. it's all just the contents of my brain spilling all over the internet. that's fine.

why do i feel completely alienated from everyone i know, these days?

no job yet, feeling bitter, totally broke, dean took me out for indian food (birthday gift), i got a record player for my birthday, bought a whirlwind heat record yesterday, it's too damn cold outside, more and more self portraits, love my children's movie class, i'm actually doing all of my readings, haven't skipped class once, i miss my family and bloomington folk dearly, need to write letters, need to make mixes, taking baths everyday (multiple times a day), still addicted to tumblr, have i covered everything?

i kind of just want to scream into a pillow right now

i think i'll go watch mtv and chain smoke instead,

-more environmental portraits

-i need inspiration

-job hunting 24/7

-can't stop listening to lil' wayne

-sex, gender and the bible class is only about the bible :[

-record player soon?

-birthday party tomorrow

-everyone should be comfortable in their own skin

today i am 20 years old.

what have i been doing with my life?