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i want to write a letter to everyone i know telling them how i feel. my problem is that i'm hung up on far too many insignificant things. i'm indecisive. i don't let things go. i pretend feelings that aren't there still exist. what am i supposed to do? everyone tells me i'm better off now. without him, living in new york. i think everyone just thinks my life is glamorous or something. maybe they're right, maybe it would be wrong for me to move backwards. maybe all i really want is for an attractive man to wrap me in tin foil in his car. i think that's the answer to my problems.